Bars

SixFourThreeTwoNineEightFiveFourOneNine:

I feel the laughter from the night before
How delightful and sweet
Filling the caverns of mind space
Finding homes in summer suns

SixFourThreeEightFourSevenFourFourZeroTwo

Vice grip snipping the wings of the bird
Forcefully dragging downward
Nothing spiritual about this
I’m just in a cage

SevenSevenTwoZeroEightOneOneFiveZeroFive:

All you’ll earn is a blank stare
Trying to play the fool
Not going to make a dime at court
A block is probably the best option

SixFourThreeSevenZeroFourOneOneNineFive

Wide eyes see passion and opportunity as one
Can’t lightning strike one last time?
Though it’s funny how you forget
Please just hear me out…

SIGNAL LOST. MESSAGE FAILED TO SEND.

It’s for the best.

Sincere Nights

At night we all felt the same
And I felt the breeze
A quite wisper across my skin
Holding fast
Surrounding me like mist
Like moonlight
Like falling leaves
Easily penetrating my lungs
So warm and so free
Comforting and holding me close
All but holding me back
The beauty of it all consumed me
As my eyes fixed upon the stars
That would shine like your own
And I am fixated
Content
Secure
With something better than oxygen
It's all I need

Somnambulant

A walk
A whisper
Linger
Get closer
Your mind's eye
Draw closer now
A dream
A flicker
Sunrise
Will hold
This memory
Still holding on

STATic

I found, there's nothing to this underneath
Just a fight for lives uncertain 
No matter what happens the outcome feels the same
So if I hurry
I'll still be here all the same
I was kidding myself to think
That a hospital bed with wheels
Meant a smoother recovery
Or that every time the vital signs drop
That the doctor will find medication in time

We were all left wondering where the quality of life went
Hooked up to a thousand machines
Everyone would like to think they'd help
But they only preserve the dead
On the days when I'm breathing
Or the days when I'm gasping
It all reads the same
I'm living
At the cost

Cause I'm done here
My life's lost most of it's recognition
For most my wounds are nothing now
Their friends been gone so long
That the cards and balloons are further in between
A way of life, no longer an emergency 
I'm living like this everyday
Like the beep on the LCD
Never stops, and when it dose, CPR is administered
All the same
Everyday
My walls are white
The color I'll never see

Post-op

I've been tending these words for weeks
Scripting them in living breath
Mercilessly trying to erase
The cold embrace of death
I can still feel it on my finger tips
Can I still beat this yet?
Fighting for all that I hang to
Scraping at the edge

Some days I walk on the ground
While others have me walk on glass
On days I stand strong
I remind myself not to tear stitches
Move slowly and resist the infection
Keep going this delicate balance
Which no one understands

Living more afraid
With much less confidence
Flinching to brace for the next hit
Beaten down
Eyes cast up to look for the sun
Anxious to see what I will find
Trying to take what's given
Bring it needed oxygen
Before a flat line

I cherish so this blessing
Take it deep
Here now and to all time
Taking only as needed
Resting up as best I can
Transplants take time to heal
Guess for this placement
First, none, or last
I don't regret

The Secret Is Out

I knew it was true
What you knew
Swore you'd never known
But you know now
You know too well

And the secret is out
And the secret is out

The sky is colder
You look up now
Swore it was down
To find what you found
Underground

It's raining now
It's raining now

Fingers on glass
You retained their shape
Swore they melted away
Feel then fade

I've lost the day
I've lost the day

Another Serenade

Fight or flight
Compared in the light
Mediocre compared to your way
Mine should never see day
In Sorrow I swallow
And blindly follow
Would for you everything fade
Or change to bring a smile to your face

If my personality found to be distilled
I'd take my life for your will
My reflection I would run
It brings agony to what I love
Take it through I'll shatter glass
Destroying what I cannot touch
Found something strong for you
If only there to get you through

Darkest night
In nothing right
Beauty fleeting away
You swore you saw today
While life no longer needs to be discussed
Time stood still just for us
And as long as you need this way
I wont fight my will to stay